I'm burnt out, I've had enough...

Over the past couple weeks I have been doing a lot of heavy handed thinking....if that even makes sense. I cannot seem to write what I want to say down in complete thoughts or paragraphs....I only seem to have success with lists...

I deserve and want someone who loves me NOW...not someone that is with me because it's convenient for them or because I have some how talked them into it...

I want to be happy...whether that means living somewhere else, working in a different way or starting from scratch..I want to be happy and I need it to be on my terms...

I need to be proud of me...in every way...the way I look, act, sound, work, play, etc...everything...

I want a job that doesn't have me working when the rest of the people in my life are not....

I want to have something to show for all the education I have received (in and out of the classroom)...

I want friends that I can count on no matter what's happening, where we are or who we're with...

I need my freedom...

I want to be an adult...to not live with my parents and to be me...

I want a job where I'm recognized and rewarded for the work I do...

I need a car...one that I bought with MY money...

I need to trust my gut..

I need to have more willpower....

I need to find me..


And to those of you that cannot bother to call, or are not "on the same level" as me...well consider this goodbye.

I deserve much better than what I have been settling for...and getting rid of you is step 1 in getting there