I hijacked a rainbow and crashed into a pot of gold...

I thought that since it's been a couple weeks I'd write a decent update for you...and there's a lot of good this time around :-)

1st--

School is going great! I gave my first shot on an actual person and nothing bad happened! I am still nervous about a lot of things but I'm getting more at ease which is great. I'm just trying to stay focused for a few more weeks then I can take a break :-)

2--

I'm singing for the first time in public this weekend. I don't mean karaoke or anything like that. Skeeter Creek, this pretty awesome local country band,is having a Halloween Party and invited me to sing with them, which I think is VERY brave since they've never heard me before! It was going to be just one song, but as of this morning, there's now a duet added to it! Which is VERY VERY exciting for me (cause I've always wanted to do this) but soooo scary! I'm just hoping my voice sounds ok...I know that it used to be decent...but it's not the same anymore :-\

But--you should definitely come out and have fun and watch me embarrass myself!
It's at Buckboards in Malta and kicks off @ 8pm. Costumes are optional, but encouraged ;-)

3--

I'm on week 3 of my diet and I have made a good amount of progress :-) Here's the run down--Lost 5lbs, 3 1/2inches off my chest, 4 3/4 inches in my hips and 3% body fat...I'm not where I want to be but I'm definitely on my way :-D


Ok I think that's good for now..back to some homework!


<3 always

I'm taking my freedom, Putting it in my car, Wherever I choose to go, It will take me far...

Hey All!

Happy October!

So I know it has been a couple (more) weeks since I wrote anything, but, as always, it's been crazy.

It's midterm time @ school and so far so good. I'm doing well, although not as I would like...I'm passing everything with flying colors, and that's the most important part.

I hate my full-time job. I love my residents, and most of the people I work with but the hours, the b.s, and usual work politics are just not longer worth the stress, my health or the pay.

That being said, I have applied for new jobs, specifically one at a local hospital that would be much better for me since I am in nursing school. So I'm really crossing my fingers! In the mean time...I'll just keep looking..

As far as the radio stuff goes...

I've been back on JAMZ a few times in the past couple week ( :-D ), I now do nights on 100.3 the Point and I'm still on 104.9 The Cat on Sunday nights. I love having things do to....I feel needed/wanted..and it's just a great feeling....a change from my other mood.

In other news at the station...

I'm doing a great thing with Gold's Gym...the 30-Day Solution.

I've been on a diet for 2 weeks, and up til me getting sick this week I've been working out 4-5 days a week.
The best things about this---I've been feeling better about me and seeing results!!

I've done lots of different group exercise classes and having so much fun!

Feel free to ask me if you have questions about it....i <3 it!!

Anyway...in the mean time...I am trying to rid my body of a horrible sinus infection so my hard work isn't lost and I can get back on track.

Back to bed for me....

comments/thoughts/etc are always welcome :-)

I'mma be I'mma be I'mma I'mma I'mma be...

I apologize for the neglect of a new blog in almost 2 weeks...school has been kicking my butt and so has work (both jobs!)

I have a lot of new and exciting things going on in my life and you will know all about it very very shortly...I promise...

One major thing that I am SUPER excited about will be shared with everyone...on a whole new level for me...and will allow me to get up close and personal with even more people...I'm so happy about it...although I cannot give you specifics just yet. Sorry!

I just hope, once I can share, you will be here to support me, and so much more!

That's all for now...

Back to the homework grind!

I'm burnt out, I've had enough...

Over the past couple weeks I have been doing a lot of heavy handed thinking....if that even makes sense. I cannot seem to write what I want to say down in complete thoughts or paragraphs....I only seem to have success with lists...

I deserve and want someone who loves me NOW...not someone that is with me because it's convenient for them or because I have some how talked them into it...

I want to be happy...whether that means living somewhere else, working in a different way or starting from scratch..I want to be happy and I need it to be on my terms...

I need to be proud of me...in every way...the way I look, act, sound, work, play, etc...everything...

I want a job that doesn't have me working when the rest of the people in my life are not....

I want to have something to show for all the education I have received (in and out of the classroom)...

I want friends that I can count on no matter what's happening, where we are or who we're with...

I need my freedom...

I want to be an adult...to not live with my parents and to be me...

I want a job where I'm recognized and rewarded for the work I do...

I need a car...one that I bought with MY money...

I need to trust my gut..

I need to have more willpower....

I need to find me..


And to those of you that cannot bother to call, or are not "on the same level" as me...well consider this goodbye.

I deserve much better than what I have been settling for...and getting rid of you is step 1 in getting there

You can't stop my shine...

Did you ever reach a point in your life where you think you may actually end up happy, and getting what you want?

What do you do? How do you handle it?

I'm not saying that I think I'm going to get what I have wanted for so long, but something in my gut and in my heart...I don't know....it's...twitching.

Yes, that's the word...twitching.

Like something's about to happen, but you don't know when or how....but it's coming.

School started this week, and maybe it's because I did half of this semester last year and I'm a bit ahead of the game, but I feel much more confident than I did last year. I feel like it's truly the right time.

Here's hoping this works out. I need to "spread my wings" for lack of better words.

I love my family and where I've grown up but I've spent my whole life here...I'm ready for more.

Speaking of more...

On my vacation I realized a lot...specifically that I would/could walk away from my current life and be okay with it...I think I'd be really happy. But only if I could have my vacation life be my real life.

That is a whole other complicating blog.

I just finally know what I REALLY want....and unfortunately, I want it now.

I mean I know I have to wait....I have a year until I'm done with school so I can't do anything yet, but waiting to see "what life has in store" is killing me slowly.

Light up your face with gladness....

Ok....so let me get this out of the way first, because I know there are people out there who are dying to know...

I took my first ever solo vacation this past weekend. I went to the Jersey Shore...and it was so amazing and exactly what I needed.

And that's all I am going to say about that....so for now....please don't ask.

On the other hand, I had my first day of classes today, and I love feeling like I know what I'm doing.
Yea, I know it's because of last year, but having this type of confidence/comfort starting off will hopefully help me out long term this time around.

I, as always, have a lot on my head...things I'm thinking about walking away from, things I want to do more of, etc....

When I get where I'm going....

I had orientation for school and I'm excited but very nervous because I know what I'm in for, and I'm not as prepared as I had hoped I'd be. So we shall see how it goes...

However,

I am having medical issues again, and while I know me and how I tend to over-react, but....you just know when something isn't right in you're own body. I have some tests next week...and will hopefully know something before my vacation next week. In the mean time...I'm just trying not to run through too many "what-if" scenarios. So I apologize in advance if I'm a bit on edge or anything the next few days.....

In other news...my vacation is next Friday...and I'm still excited but now...I'm just planning on drinking my worries away (and yes...I know how bad that sounds....but it's been too long since I've had a life like that--it's allowed). I just hope I have fun...although I'm not expecting as much as I hoped.

I will update when I know more....but for now...it's just a "survival-ish" type mood.